There is no excuse for what I did.
You trusted me. We spent an hour talking.. you opening up & sharing your feelings with complete vulnerability. And I followed it up by asking a dumb question..
My impulse does not matter, my arousal does not matter.. the only thing that mattered in that moment was the trust you had just placed in me, and I proved it meant nothing.. I took the safe space you made and I violated it. It was a complete failure on my part. The realization hit me like a truck. Seeing the shock and disbelief.. knowing I put it there right after you were so open, is a feeling I will not forget.
This is not something I can fix with a couple of promises. This requires a complete change in my behavior.. From now on, your emotional and physical safety is my first priority.. not something that comes after my own impulses. It is the new rule I’ll follow, and there are no exceptions.
I am truly sorry for the hurt and disrespect I showed you. I have to make up the trust I broke. I will start now.